Today I dropped her last feeding (the nighttime one) and it's really depressing. I know this may sound cheesy or weird to those of you who don't/haven't nursed a baby, but I love nursing her and feeling that closeness and that bond. But apart from that, the WORST is the feeling that she is now growing up, and soon she won't need me anymore.
That is my fear. I'm having a hard time thinking about how she will grow up, leave home, not talk to me every day, not give me a hug every day, not depend on me anymore. I don't want her to be a teenager one day and maybe not like me all the time, or care about me. I don't know if any of you feel or felt that way about your children, but I find myself having this same fear all the time. Am I crazy?
And dropping breastfeeding is yet another part of letting her grow up.
OK, I think I'll go cry now...
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I totally agree. It is always so hard for me to ween at a year. I don't want to be like one of those Chileans with a 2 year old on one side and a 5 year old on the other, but it makes me sad to give it up. I just love when they depend on me for this. Good luck =)
See I am totally opposite. When Porter bit me for the third time and drew blood at six and a half months I was glad to be done nursing... And I don't fear the whole child not needing me because all of my sisters and I are so independent and I always wanted to do things on my own and not need my parents... So I am easier letting this happen, because I know that even though I was so independent that my mother was there when I needed hear. When I was having a bad day and when I needed my mother to hold me and wipe away my tears. So I am not afraid of that. I do have my fears but I know that my children will feel my love and know how much I love them... therefore always coming to me when they need that motherly affection. But I will not raise my children to be needy and need me for everything I will not enable them to not do anything on their own. I will give them that space of letting them go and grow up because that is how we grow. That is what God did for us and we must do for our children. I am not saying it wont be hard... but its our responsibility as a parent to teach and guide not do everything for them so they can't do anything on their own ;)
You can do it Nessy! I know its hard for you. This is the first step. Cherish the moments you have and know that she will always feel your love and come to you for affection and comfort ;)
ah minha filha! eu imagino! eu nao consegui dar de mamar mas eu sinto o mesmo! eu vejo olivia ficando de pe, e querendo andar, e descobrir o mundo e nao querer mais a mainha dela toda hora. Quero que ela seja bebesinho denovo viu? quero sim! lets stop this time clock!!! :) te amo!
I know how you feel, and Grant is only 7 months and I've only dropped two feedings a day and I'm depressed about that. It's nice to have that bond with them, and as soon as he is weined he will be a COMPLETE Daddy's boy and it makes me sad. I hope he'll still love me and want to be with me.
I totally know how you feel, and unfortunately, those moments will continue to happen: preschool, kindergarten, baptism...etc. You're not crazy, not at all. :)
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